I am listening to the second movement of Barber’s violin concerto on repeat. It is hauntingly beautiful – full of anguish, pain and agony that exists in this fallen world, yet full of beauty and hope.
I created this blog to keep track of my current period of turmoil/confusion.. or rather to help me look back, when i’ve finally made a decision what to do with my life. haha It seems that once I decided to give up playing the cello professionally (or my body decided to do that for me), infinite possibilities have presented themselves in the past month.
There are the arts related ones, a couple of groups to manage/intern at, an exciting project I’m working on (more details when it’s ready), my own initiative to make classical music more accessible, and then a whole host of random ideas, like opening a fruit juice stall (LOL! – what was i thinking?!)
The past few weeks have been be full of possibilities, new (and old) friends, new experiences and most importantly, a whole new perspective to life! I think I used to be driven by fear. The fear that I wasn’t good enough, the fear that people would judge me.. maybe this whole cello fiasco has liberated me, and allowed me to become and see the person I truly am. 🙂
This quote has been popping into my head quite a lot these days..
Don’t spend your life finding yourself, CREATE yourself!
I like it because it takes away the notion that there’s just one thing we’re suited to do and we have to search for it like a needle in a hay stack. Creating yourself gives you the option of trying out a lot of things, and you have to take action and be creative and smart about it!
Exciting times ahead! 🙂